updates.

TL;DR: Depression slowly getting worse, falling behind in school, motivation shit, writing block.

I literally cannot take the fucking depression. I've started writing in a journal to try to vent some of my feelings, kinda helps, but not that much. It's just seriously overwhelming and I just want to sleep all the time. 

So I missed another day of school yesterday, but somehow got a 91 on my math quiz today. Missed a test in English, apparently, still need to catch up on the reading to even take it, have 4 chapters of notes to do in bio... just really not in the mood to. Probably going to ask if I can take the test later. Seriously falling behind in school, the idea of finals fucking terrifies me. 
And I seriously need to do my community service. I need 15 hours for Living Skills over the summer, 2.5 more hours for bio, and 8 hours for theatre. e_o I'm doing some community service at an art thing this weekend, so that's like 2.5 hours, but it seriously isn't enough. I'm not even sure if I can do it all in time ._. 
My motivation is also shit. Just, I can't force myself to do anything, really. 

And I have writing block, so don't expect any poems. I'm just hoping it'll get better so I can finish up NaPoWriMo. I'm like 5 days behind now o_o